Showing posts with label Thoughts. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Thoughts. Show all posts
I think there comes a point in most relationships when this song is RELEVANT!!

Its exactly what us Ladies do! We trust our men, but are still tempted to look on his phone... Then we find
the most silliest thing to hold against him... 90% of the time we know he ain't cheating.. we just wanna FIGHT!

"Whats wrong? you say nothing, but I can blatantly see that its something!"


Now what WE ladies fail to understand is ... Men are simple... so after we see it we get all iggy and funky but refuse to directly say anything... Instead we get cold/screw our face... for every conversation he generates we reply with two words at best... Leaving him to get frustrated and getting him to repeatedly ask if everything is ok ......

"I ask if you want food? You say no but I can hear your belly rumbling"

Why we do this I don't know! But it takes 3 to 4 times of him asking if we are ok for us to turn around and say "don't worry about it" or "I donno YOU tell ME" ...WTF!! LOL!


By this point he has NO IDEA what the Rass your talking about...If anything your just giving him a headache... Simple men and psycho attention seeking moment for women, don't mix!

Mind games are truly on! I must reiterate... Men are simple and aren't too phazed!! So they won't beg us for an answer, they'll just leave you be, however somehow something they says so innocently turns into a massive outbreak from our side (like we time it...."not now.. not now... not.. now.......EXPLODE!!).....

"Why you acting like a Pessimist....looking through my messages..don't you trust man?"


Referring back to the fact that guys are simple... it also means us ladies take it to another level of emotion and thought... So, a simple "hey John, how are you babes?" text, leads into "omg she called him babes.. what!! Is she something special, why is she calling him by his first name.. its not formal coz she said babes at the end... " then we take it to another level "is she trying to sound sexy or sumthing.. wtf is she doing textin? Who is this Alicia??" LOOOOOOOOOL!


Where else the guy is 'Simply' thinking.. "erm its just mate.. " and believe it or not... it is what it is...


" I'm a big man I can get calls when I like"


Don't get it twisted ... Some guys are playing around ... but us ladies do make things ten times worse by creating a whole episode of Eastenders in our head (theme tune and all!!) instead of asking a few questions then knowing where/how to drop it!! In this track Bashy mentions how shes crying... Its not because of what HE said... its THAT episode of Eastenders is STILL playing in her head with the dramatic ending, which is "OMG hes messing with her and has 3 kids with her, that I don't know of.......BABY MAMA DRAMA!!!"
.. The imagination WONDERS faaaaaaaaar!

What next? We want to end things! Want to dramatically walking away..... Causing an unnecessary scene!! Grr!! LOL!

Ladies..... Let a guy have his females and stop fishing for stuff to fight about ....

Guys... A girl will sometimes cause this as shes attention seeking.. sometimes she doesn't even know it.. but it IS!! So it should end with you hugging her up and reminding her how much she means to you... even if its JUST TO SHUT HER UP!!!


Listen to these lyrics and LAUGH!!! ......

Bashy- Pryin' from Chupa Chup Mixtape...

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Grrr..... I'm ill!!! Left work early as I felt my head would blow if I stayed any longer! Not only do I have this cold/flu/feaverish ish that's going round...... But Aunty Flow is here and she aint shifting for a minute.


So thought I'd write a likkle something something!


Now to the topic...... living in London, you are bound to bump heads with celebs.


And as a youth I always wanted to meet Donell Jones and Tyrese.... But I didn't Wanna come across as a crazy ass fan (which i AM!) but instead a clam person who doesn't really know who they are just "bumped" into them and thought "hmm Cute!" .........



Kept telling myself I won't scream with excitement and I won't talk about them....but instead.. I'd act "coooool" so they thinks "wow shes a fly chic and she isn't obsessed with me!!!" Looooool! Gosh did I give it too much thought.. but I was 13 going on 30 at the time.





Then there is REALITY!!! I'll begin with the list of people I met.. And yes some are 'LOL' Random:
  • Musiq Soulchild
  • Fundamental (yes they were famous and girls did and prob still getting excited over them.. especially that Kyle.. Yummmy! Aheem )
  • Kat (Presenter)
  • Cleopatra (back when they are "Cleopatra coming atchya")
  • 112
  • Jahiem
  • Ginuwine
  • Imajn (remember...... "shorty you keep playing with my mind.. you tease me all the time but I had Enough")
  • Dru Hill (in Pizza Hut)
  • Destiney's Child
Wow didn't realise the list is that Loooong! I know some people are gonna be reading this and going "I met more"......Well I didn't meet them coz of my career or coz I got someone whos can "hook me up"......... I Just happen to bump into them (well besides musiq.. I waited for him after his gig! )


So I've met allllllll these people and with every single one of them I didn't know what to say. (well besides cleopatra.. I just spoke to them casually)


Only after I walked away from them do I know what to stay!! And gosh Did I have things to say..




Then there are Celebs that I have seen but not approached and this is Why:
  • Do I approach them and accidentally bug the hell out of them as obviously I wasn't the first or last person to approach them in one day and them thinking "so that's sad fan number 203 for today"
  • Say Hi and that's it? now I'd look like a random person just saying Hi to random people
  • Do I say "I really like your material/acting/voice (etc)" for them to say thank you and walk away.....
  • smile at them as i'm going past so they could go "ok freak!!"
Then again.... If I ignore them then..
  • They'd think I was trying to be "too cool " and not say hello.
  • I was rude to ignore them like they I don't know who they are
  • They may get depressed that they are going past hundreds of people and not a single person acknowledged them
Great Example.... Taio Cruz


I saw him on Saturday in Fulham Broadway when I was going Cash point inside Sainsbury's.... He was leaving Sainsbury's as I was going in.... I instantly recognized him.. told my sister and she was not bothered ..... But me being a fan of his work I really wanted to do something.... but he looked at me and I just looked away like I was guilty of stealing his shades!! WTF is wrong with me. why can't I just say something?? he was ALONE!! and he had a Nandos Bag that he threw away so clearly he ATE alone! The moment went as he walked off while I play my exit theme music in my head "Hes Like a star.. like a star.... Like a star... Hes like a Star" ..... in both English and Arabic




Then on my way up to go movies, I saw him in Joy!! another eye contact but not even a friggin smile could come out of me!! again WTF is wrong with me?? Dude I just look rude .. or could he read the excited/cool look in my eyes? and thought "keep away from the crazy bitch!" lol!


I know your all thinking..... Hebz its not like its "T.I or something" well for your information "T.I is just a normal person to someone else in the states.. and Taio is Talented" ........ Thank you!!


so this is a useless blog..... But I got to release my thoughts......

So its 8:50 on the 22nd March 2009...

Besides the obvious.. of it Being Mothers day and the death of Jade Goody (RIP) ...

Musiq Soulchild is most probably on stage and I'm MISSING IT!!!

Thought I'd just share it with everyone as I'm peeeved off!!! I know everyone who knows me know this isn't right....... as I NEVER Miss a Musiq concert!!! Grr!! EVER!!



So on the flip side.... Hopefully I will be seeing Mr Trey Songz and J. Holiday at the end of the Month!!

Oh and Brian McKnight is in concert..... ugh and Ne-Yo the choices are endless and my money is limited. Grr.

Now I've shared it with my peeps.. ... I'm out!!

Driving!!




Gosh, I began my driving Lessons around a year ago... You know, It was exciting to book that first lesson, then to have it..... I booked mine with AA. Thought "hmmm Ford Focus? Decent car to practice in!" ...... so payed for 24 hours up front!



Took 20 hours of lessons on a manual car.. Passed my Theory with two mistakes...... and booked my Practical test, only to get a call to tell me my instructor has double booked and guess who has to cancel?........ME!!! Son of A GUN!!



So third year uni took over my life which meant the lessons had to stop... That shouldn't be a problem if I was told "Heba you drive like a MAN!!" and to me in the driving world is considered a compliment. I mean He couldn't be talking about anything else riiight?????



Now 8 Months have passed! I call Up AA because I wanna do my TEST ASAP!! Wanna have my own Currrrrrrr!! (car!) Buuuuuuuuuut...... I don't want my old instructor, I mean me and him were cool, maybe too cool for us to take each other seriously, I need to PASS not gossip!



Not sounding Shallow but I got the person from AA to read a list of all the MALE manual instructors in my area...... Ali...Malik ..Akbur.. Mohammed .. Denis....."stop there!!" Sounds like someone I can work with!


No disrespect to the others, but this is my money and at that stage I am entitled to Stereotype!! If they are Arab and/or Muslim (WHICH I AM!!!!!! thought I'd Clarify that) I have a slight feeling they'd rinse me for as many lessons as possible! Could be Very wrong but decided to stick to my stereotypes! Ignorant I am!!



Mr AA man agreed with me that my first lesson will take place in XXXXXX on XXXXX and how my instructor will call me before hand to confirm the times!!!! "yay! I might have my license b4 my 23rd!!"



So my phone ringss.. and its my instructor Denis! first reaction in my head is "woooooaaah is this a joke?"... again I must mention me being human I stereotyped him as BIG GAY Jamaican....... Must emphasis ..... I have no issues with anyone being gay ( as I have gay friends) or being Big (I'm one to speak) Nor Jamaican ( My other half and many of my friends are orig from same background!)



I mean I could be wrong.. but my explanation behind this stereotype is ...... the higher the voice the Bigger they are, For some reason I can tell what race a person is from just by their tone in voice, not Accent! .. Just TONE! I'm Talented!



Brace yourself to this......... So I turn up... Guess what?? He is a big Gay Jamaican ! Oooh I'm starting to think my stereo types are accurate!!



His first few sentences made me feel anxious, he was loud, in my face and clearly stated a few times that "no other instructor can do it like him! "


So he then begins to ask me a few questions like "what is this?" ( pointing at what I though up until then is a Rear view Mirror) So with all confidence thinking it was such a STRAIGHT FORWARD easy question I replied "rear view mirror!!!"......


Thats when he turned around and stuck his finger in my face and said "Nuh!.... This is like a woman's handbag.... we all have one...... but ONLY WEEEE get to see whats in it!..... Its called a Drivers Mirror hunni!" ..... How am I mena react to that? Wow! ok???? Was it really necessary?


Then he told me to get to know the steering wheel and the gear stick and I quote "touch it .. caress it.. get to them... feel every Bump! " ........... again WOaah! Was it NECESSARY? like I'm starting to think this dude is on crack!
So That alone made me feeel soooo uneasy and tense about driving and may I mention........ At night!!!! ....


One I starting driving I clearly was still getting the hang of it ......but Mr Handbag was refusing for me to relax..... told me I was killing the steering wheel...... REALLY? REALLY? Do u blame me????



Me being the joker I am , I made him laugh a few times, Oh did I regret it! Every time he Laughed he'd slap me across my arm and hysterically rock back and forth having a laughing fit and then suddenly stop , stare and me and erupt with another set of laughter! Nah .... Nah.. don't Touch me.... I don't know you like thatQ Really????



SO right now, for the first time EVER I looked at the time praying its almost home time.. coz right now I'm feeling homesick!!! WTF!! But No no nooooo I got another hour and a Half!
All this time and torture and its only been half an hour?????


Throughout the lesson he kept reminding how great he finds himself and everytime he asked me questions, he really didn't give me a chance to reply and he again stuck his finger in front of my face rotated his neck 180 degrees and told me "Nooo.. coz your previous instructor isn't me!"


Everytime I did well he'd click his fingers 5 times while staying "Wickiiiiid wickiiiiid"..... Dude I can't relax if everything is soo hyped and Over Crazy!! I need to Focus on driving not on where your finger is flying to!!!

SO end of lesson he asked me what i thought of him, but as it was soo surreal , I was thinking this is as good as a dream (but a nightmare) so I can say what I want coz once I leave the Car I will wake up!! SO I said he was good in parts, but he was too much for me, like he made me anxious!! (wow I'm brave!.. this could of turned ugly) ....... he instantly got defensive and ask if he was tooo enthusiast .......... I think replied with a hint of frustration ... "enthusiasm is GOOD...... Its just your Approach!!" ........ bottom Line.... I made an excuse to why i couldn't confirm future dates and that I'd contact him..... Felt like a first date gone sour and me saying "Don't call me.... I'll call you" only for the person to never call back....

so I contcted AA... I need me a new intructor and I give up on Manual...... This dude converted me ..... BIG TIME!

So right then I just wanted to pass my test.. and just be able to go from A to B ....... don't care about gears anymore!!! AUTOMATIC... (Yess I did insult most ppl who drive automatic..... Lazy Mofos... I am now one of you!!! )


So got new instructor ..... Byron....... Left me a voice message " Ello Eba this is Baroon your driving instructor from the Ah Ah".......... no stereotypes.. the accent speak itself.... All I could think of at that time is Little Ms Docelyen! LOL! But he sounded much cooler than my last instructor..



1st lesson, Very laid back dude... let me drive.. was very on point....... Me thinking..... Yeah this is gonna go smooooothly!!! Again..... I was wrong....... 2nd lesson, he made us park up in a petrol station while he spoke to family in Lagos.. REALLLY??? Am I being pranked ? I'm having a Lesson! Damnit people!!


Then when I began to drive He received another 3 more calls from Lagos.. where he had long conversations while I drove at 8pm almost crashing in a few cars..... Dude ..... Not Cool!



3rd Lesson....... couldn't tell you how that when..... waited 20 mins.... called him..... that when he went "Ohhh ello ebaaa.. Ow are you?? " .. Yeah I'm waiting and have been for 20 mins.. "ohh we had a lesson today???" ..... what the Rasss... YESSS we do! "ohh I am running behind schedule and I forgot to call you!" ......Dude..... not Cool!


Call up AA again........... I want my Money I'm done with this ! Next move............ CRASH COURSE!!! Anyone know a good company for intensive lessons? Need to get this Sorted!!
Musiq Soulchild Vs. Trey Songs/J.Holiday!




People People, I'm in such a dilemma !! I Have a Love for music, so Live music is my thing..... Oh Gosh this month is my Birthday month and due to my Holiday to Disneyland, Paris, my Pockets are empty!!!
Also this month are two concerts I REALLY want to go to!!! Like REALLY want to go to!!
Musiq Soulchild Vs. J. Holiday and Trey Songz!!!!! All at the Indigo!!! OK I've seen my Musiq live around 7 times and met him once!!
(The Pic is like 4 years old.. so don't Comment on the look!!)







But I'm too dedicated to not feel crappy about missing hearing his new album live, Especially not being able to hear "SoBeautiful" LIVE!!!!! "You're myyyyyyyy babyyyyyyy my looooooover my ladyyyyyyyy, Allllllll night you make meeeeee Want youuuu,it drives me crazyyyy......" (Getting excited just the thought of it!!!)..

Musiq's lyrics are DEEP on some other level that these Fine young men cannot even touch!.. ...But.. But.... but.......


...But then there is my Beautiful singer Mr T Songz!! Gosh! I've been NEEDING to see him for sooooo Long! His Lyrics.. grr. He Looks Hella Sexy even with his goofyness! If ya'll know about Trey Songz you'll know about "Role Play.. role Play, we can do it your Way" and "Sex for your stereo"


......
When you see me in the videos babe, Do I make your body go crazy?(Yesh! :$ ) Or when you catch me in a magazine baby,Do you rip me out and save my page? (no I just have a whole album on my computer!!) If my voice comes through your speaker and you legs suddenly get weaker...(yes although YOU physically does that already!!!) this is for you. (why thank yoooooou homie!.. got me blushing and sheeeeeeeeeet!)





To make it harder, J.Holiday who I like (not Mad about) is also preforming.. and I reeeally like about 5 or 6 of his songs.. although I think he only has one Album (not being bitchy.. ok maybe a likkle!)...........But to hear him sing (the Most Obvious one) "Beed beeed beeed" and "Come here" Come On Come Herrre ...Come Herrre ..I Know U Wanna Come Closer ...Come Here Come Here I Want U Closerrr N Closeeerrrrr" and "Betcha Neva Had ".. Body Like a Mutha Fucker.... Damn Right .. . LOL! I sooo I wanna here these tracks annnnnnd "I cant breathe when you talk to me,
Cant breathe when your touching me.......Suffocate when your away from me ...so much love you take from me.....im going out of my mind "





BUT do i really wanna go to another concert filled with Teenage hormones??? Stupid Young ones getting Hysterical over these men??? We only have room for one Crazy Fan....... Thats me!! everyone else just looks silly! LOL! I'm joking!!


On the Realliooo .. I wanna hear them preform LIIIVE!!! (before someone says "listen to their album!!") and not a bunch of screaming Chics...... Sing along please do!! Just don't scream!!


See With Musiq The audience is much different then these two guys or any other male artist under the age of 30.. as girl under 20 cannot control their emotions!!! With Mr Soulchild People actually either singly (Politely) along with him and remain silent so they can hear him sing so soulfully!! ... Why can't that happen elsewhere?????



Because this decision is soo hard.. I'm soooo worried I'll end up going to neither of them!!! Which is even worse!! people! Heeeelp!!!

TFL


Don't get Londoners when it comes to Underground!!!!!!

Every morning as I set out to work, I do my Daily Prayer to get to work Safely (yes I do!!) then as I reach the train station, I get my iPod out and try and find at least two tracks in a row that I wanna hear to set the tone for my day.


Now I'm that I've gotten my metro and waiting for my train, all the songs I wanna hear first thing in the morning have been long gone and now I'm just letting whatever song that comes on get me through the my journey to work.


Ideally all I want to do is turn my music up as loud as possible to drown the noise of people coughing and the driver who keeps reminding us that we are held at a signal at every Darn station.


However owe to LOVELY WONDERFUL (Gritting my Teeth) TFL we have all these new Campaigns that clearly state that I Shouldn't... so These are my rules:


  • If i can see the sign on my train.. my music is lowered..

  • If for some reason I cannnnnnnnnnnn't......... then I am blazing my beats. (If I can't see it then it doesn't count!!!)

My music is up and on most occasions its not FULLY up, but today IT WAS UPPPP!! London Underground is known for being rubbish, which results to all passengers feeling like a herd of sheep as they are shoving each other on the train.... SO Imagine everyone VEXED!!! with the 1 in 5 person more Vexed than the rest.


So being a bad atmosphere on the train, my music being up is bound to piss someone off.. but you know what? I can hear some techno music screaming from someones ear from across the carriage, so as the TFL would put it, that gives me the "Green Signal" to pump ....it ....UP!





Yes, I got a few 'tuts' here and there.... a people would actually STOP reading , so they can simply identify the culprit (which is of course me and three others (on average) ) SO THEY CAN STARE!!! Until I make eye contact and they shake their heads in disgrace and carry on reading!!




SO I then smile and carry on listening to my music, as unless you ask my politely I'm not touching my iPod besides switching tracks.


Coz of course my little noise is MUCH MUCH louder than people's sneezing, coughing and talking... not forgetting the sound of the train moving!!!






Now to the purpose of this blog...



Summary of above.....


people are so bothered by my music.... .



sooooooo Its Home time..... Same thing applies.... Music on, No sign = Music as Loud as Ever... Its been a long day and like most people I am TIRED, Frustrated and Just Want to get home as QUICK as possible.


I sigh with relief as my train pulls up and even happier when i find a spot for me to lean on closest to the door. SO all i need to do now is relax close my eyes and let the music take over........... OR NOT!!!!




As Dwele is midway through a riff a group of, or what I justified to myself as a Group of Football (amateur) Hooligans began to chant together, but as they were soo WASTED at .. (I look at the time) 5:30PM!!! their words are barely understandable....


They then start mumbling after repeating their chants a Few TOO many times! Thinking finally I can get back into my zone... so lets rewind Dwele back as i missed a bit.


OMG did I NOT have the RELAXED journey that I wanted! They didn't not just Chant.. The FATTesT dude out of them decided to lift his top and hold his Belly like hes pregnant. WTF!! He then "accidentally" hit a woman's book and then shouted at her to let him know what happens in the final chapter.... had he been sober , that would of been funny as he was just making a joke out of a accident but he became aggressive and midway he'd begin chanting which made his mates start off again!


Now I must emphasis on this...... They are in the middle of the carriage and EVERYONE on that carriage and the next could hear what they were shouting as if they were next to them........... They became verbally abusive and made everyone uncomfortable.. ..


What killed it all was that.................. NOT A SINGLE PERSON TUTED AT THEM...... Not even asked them to lower their voices.. NOTHING... NOT EVEN A STARE!!!!!!

Check this............ I ........... I .......I Get given the Evils because my music is UP! ME??? Abuse aggression is of course so much more ACCEPTABLE IN THIS SOCIETY!! Further more...... how can THEY hear my music when I can't due the LOUD Shouting and Chanting that the ignorant bullies were forcing upon EVERYONE!!!!!


The train was just as packed as this morning...difference is people where more frustrated then ever as we ALL wanted to go home to Silence.........


Please someone explain to me HOW this one works out?


I get nasty looks and all the noises under the sun due to the fact a few people can hear a faded tap coming from my ear.. and PLEASE I LISTEN TO NEO_Soul so that not Exactly NOISE!!!

Techno........ Rock...... Dance......... Trance........ on a train....... NOT A GOOD LOOK !!! Or at least not BLAZING ON A PACKED TRAIN!!



p.s There were NOT going to a match.. they were just wasted FAR TOO EARLY!!!
Yesterday I was sitting in the passengers side of my sisters car, taking our friend home. It was around 12:45am, baring in mind it was a Saturday night.





I have came to a realization that Alcohol isn't a good look!

I don't drink but don't mind being surrounded by people who are, but why do people drink to get drunk? Lack of confidence? they need a drink to dance the night away Low self esteem? a few drinks to pluck up the courage to make a move on someone or get flirtatious... or just an excuse to act a fool and get loud and obnoxious... Just plain DUMB!?!

On the way to my friends house we drove through central London, we took a corner first thing I saw was a couple standing outside their car ahead. The man was suited and booted and had a massive awkward smile on his face (almost embarrassed) when we caught eyes, then I realised he stood away from his girlfriend , as we drove past I saw this tall lady in beautiful cream and brown dress throwing up in the corner, and had it on her dress.

Imagine if it was a first date? Its not a Good Look maan! How unattractive... Why would someone get themselves so hammered to make a fool out themselves? why end a night like that? IT could of turned uglier..... Drink Driving = Someone Dying!!! Me Nah Care how good of a driver you are!!

SO society has made a joke of it. Possibly in this situation is something worth laughing over as it was two of them together.

However on our journey we came across a guy dressed in a
black suit, walking down the street so messed up, his legs weren't even functioning, he looked so distressed and could of easily got knocked over as he was so tilted when he was walking that he was walking on his ankles (his foot was so twisted in as he was walking his ankle was touching the ground)

Now this situation is far from funny, he was alone, in a back street of west end and clearly had no coordination and i would safely guess had not idea where he was heading to.

To me he looked Hella vulnerable. why would you :
a) Get so hammered?
b) leave alone, man or girl, you are soo exposed to such negativity
c) Not arrange transport?

Its far from cool to be getting hammered alone? So lets assume he wasn't alone and he simply left a club after partying with friends.... where his friends at?

Same situation but with a girl.. I say just as vulnerable , regardless of girl or guy.. .
Saw another guy... SAME SITUATION.

So that's four people in an ugly place, from having a "Fun night out".... really??



Thats Just four people that "stumbled" across ME, in central London in a car journey. Meaning this is just a fraction of the drinking population in London, let alone the UK....!!

Don't get me wrong this is not the first time I've seen it, but its the first time to see it and be THAT bothered by it.

Yesterday made me reflect Alcohol to whats really going on with the government.

Alcohol is behind many murders, attacks and suicides. Why do people even touch it?

If you think about it....why did the Government reclassify weed? because it COULD Cause mental health problems, which links to murders and suicide. But it can be argued that A LOT of people smoke weed from teachers, politicians, youth and people aged 50+ but have no negative effect.

Smoking weed without the scent can almost go unnoticed. Yet alcohol is very evident and worrying...

Just looking at peoples behavior on road leaves ME so distressed.

I'm a sucker for talk shows, fake or not, the main reason for break ups and huge mistakes on these shows are linked DIRECTLY to Drinking! ITs it really worth losing Life and loved ones??

Forgetting the minor effects and outcome = embarrassment/foolishness and uncontrollable emotions.

Reason for abusive relationships are dominantly influenced by alcohol. The outcome is ugly and sometimes fatal...

So I ASK ....... why are people even going there? not everyone goes out for the intention to get drunk but that does not always go to plan..

Would you stick your hand in fire with the intention not to get burnt?

I won't get in deeper than I have as I'm just venting how I felt yesterday.

If you drink but never gotten drunk then cool... however if you've done one too many dumb things and/or gotten some what aggressive and acted foolish coz your drunk..........Then You NEED TO CHECK YOURSELF HOMIE!


So I have come to the realisation that the person I was talking about when I said " It will 9/10 times end up with argument , because one person made an effort and the other person didn't quite match up" I was actually talking about My Life!! Grrrr!


So... after all the stress, the sadness and the shite that I have experienced today...... I have decided to give up on Valentines Day and just see it as a revoltingly cheesy day where people put the real/fake emotions on their sleeves to either:
  1. Please the one person they care for and make sure that V-day goes according to both their expectations .. i.e. roses...dinner...Poetry...... The rest I'll leave to the imagination.


  2. To simply get into someones pants so they will say EVERYTHING you want to hear and mean None of it! (And no..... not my situation AT ALL)
I love the person I'm with and Believe me we are Solid ......... solid as a Rock! And nothing’s changed it [Oh…] The thrill is still hot, hot, hot, hot, hot, hot, hot, hot...............OK I'll stop there!

My point being... this day is soo unnecessary. There are more events of the year that mean so much more such as birthdays and other festivities. They alone consist of much effort to be worried about to even begin to stress about this..

I mean if you want to buy me a gift on V-day.. Well I definitely WON'T stop you... This means I will just no longer EXPECT anything.

Not even a rose! why should I?

If I get it all year round (yeah right!) then why would I suddenly NEED to have one on V-day?

Whats the differnce ? Will this rose prove that my other half loves me more or is more attentive ..... or is he simply just following a set of rules? I'd rather we Freestyle.


Anyhoooooo.. I think Anniversaries are enough.. They are unique to every couple and hold many more memories and meaning behind it!!!

So whos with me??? ..... Ok I guess I'll go alone!

and to think I use to be a sucker for v-day!! lol!



Every Year we all have to face this one day where society has made it a Must to be with someone or just feel really wack about yourself.

Valentines day.. Whats it really about?

Its stereotypically meant to be a day where roses, chocolate and jewelery are given to girlfriends, boyfriends, husbands and Wives.

Romantic Gestures from a perfect dinner, an engagement ring in a middle of a bunch of roses and a card filled with ideal lyrics to set the scene for this day.

(Vinyl Scratch!!!!!)


When will people understand... The reality of V-Day is high expectations from people. Pressure ... Stress and a lot of money wasted.

Spend money on the person you love, take them out. But don't base it around that day. It will 9/10 times end up with argument , because one person made an effort and the other person didn't quite match up.



Single?

Unless your happy with your status, Valentines Day will never be a great day for you. A day to remind you how VERY single you are. It will also piss you off to the point of no return as everything you read, see and eat is linked to valentines day... TV has suddenly committed itself with the most soppiest ish in history. Even the ADVERTS.

All Merchandise in every shop has either a heart, rose or RED splattered all over it.

Your Favorite Bakery Biscuit has now become heart shaped... why!!!

If you are born on Valentines day..... even more frustrating if all you'll be getting is left over Valentines gifts!


This is how it should work out:

  • Take this day to tell everyone you care for that you Love them... Mum dad, uncle sister.. best friend... etc. ..

  • Take advantage of 2 for 1 offers. with a friend or your other half. You may even end up with a free rose or a freebie

  • Remember if your single ... your not alone... if you feel alone..read this .... A lot of couples break up by the end of Valentines day or the day before.
  • You might end up finding a potential future partner while out with mates.

  • If your a movie lover.. You know you got hours of end of films even if you have to have a bucket on standby. lol
  • Buy Flowers to a family member such as a parent or a sister.... Love is love.

Whatever happens.. Don't be stressed, don't feel obligated and don't feel down. 24 hours and everything will be ok!!

Romantic gestures mean more when they are NOT expected.. so I say do it every other day AS WELL AS 14/feb

Make sure to make the most of this day ... even if its mocking it!


When I found out a friend of mine got to see Day 26 @ Indigo Last year I went crazy!!! I didn't get to see Que? Will? whaaaaaaat?

So a few months ago I excitingly find out they are in fact coming back to for another gig with Donnie and a bit of the Brits... Taio Cruz....(had Danity Kane Just Fixed up they would of joined as well..... )

Being a massive fan of live music.. there was no doubt in whether I'd be attending. Again i must emphasize ... DAY 2 6!!!

Then I scrolled down Ticketmaster page to see it was on Saturday 14th Feb 2009. This led to me "Awwwwwwin" for a LONG minute.. Thinking ... YESS my other half can pay for it!!! Whoop Whoop..............Then...

... Hysteria came into play..... A few days prior to that I'm taking out all FOUR of my wisdom teeth! Mother what!!!

I had to then reassess my situation.. Would my swelling go down in time? I mean it might not even swell at all! I can't cancel my appointment, I've already booked time off work and God knows how long I have to wait.... But Its Quuuue and Willl...... and Brian... Robert and ....... The OTHER ONE!!??! :S

Then the Sensible yet angry part of Heba spoke some sense....."Imagine how many hundred excited teens waving their hands and their booties in the air... could I really deal with it? Would I just end up smacking a @%&!*??? or further more them smacking me on my very oh so Sore face!?!?!"

Darn why does this "rational" side of me always have the final word?

So now I'm not going to see Day 26..... Further more...... I'm not going ANYWHERE!

Then again.... I did promise myself to not go to any big venues for music as Its just filled with excited children... Jazz Cafe is my spot. Or anything with a similar venue capacity and with a minimum age and brain size requirement

I just know come Saturday i will be dwelling on the fact I could be standing a fear meters away from Hot Hot Talent.

but Life goes On....

I've been trying to get back into article writing for age.. but i just can't seem to do it....

I have a massive block.. so to get to where I need to be.. I shall begin to write little bits here and there..




Been gone for a second... now I'm Back !!





What a WACKO EVENING!



Yesterday night I attended the World Music Awards, to no surprise when I arrived half an hour before the show was meant to start, the rehearsals were still going on. I didn't mind watching Rhianna while she sang her song over and over again but it did get frustrating when the doors open at 6pm and show starts at 7pm and your still not seated until 7:20pm!

I still had faith that it..s going to be a decent show; I mean it IS the WMA!!
However its now approaching 8pm no sign of shows, celebrities are even waiting to be seated! Nevertheless Chris Brown was in the building and he seemed to be the most grounded Celebes there, maybe because he is new to the UK so he had to make an impression that definitely worked, as I was most impressed. He got off his table and stood there signing autographs for aprox 20mins. When he sat back down, he only got up to sign more! He was very dedicated to his fans! Much respect to him!


The Michael Jackson fans kept chanting for him, and may I add over 80% of the crowd were MJ fans!


Finally the show starts, 8:35pm, so much for 7pm, but I guess that TV for you!
The voice over starts the show and again to no surprise he has to do it again as he was too early because the first act wasn't ready.

Beyonce was the first act of the night, a brilliant choice, she sounded amazing, looked amazing and had such a ..MJ.. opening intro and then switched into ..Déjà vu.. and very preformed performance.

Lindsey Lohan came on stage, bless her heart, she was extremely nervous, enough to have to repeat her speech again for recording purposes.
With little support from the crowd and them booing her constantly, I don..t blame her.

Michael Jackson fans booed pretty much all the acts, to the extent that Rhianna almost cried on stage, while singing!

CHRIS BROWN! He performed a cover of ..Thriller.., he wore exactly what MJ wore in his video and he most definitely had the moves to pull it off! Him and Beyonce, by far were the high lights of the evening!
They got the crowd moving and the celebrities awake!

Finally when Mr Jackson got on stage to receive his award, everyone in the room stood up to great him. He gave a typical MJ speech, with the little pause followed by a ..LOVE YOU TOO!.., followed by a GIGLE, which drove the fans mad!
Once he received his award and gave his speech, the crowd still were not satisfied.
Scary for Rhianna, she was the next act to perform so she was booed throughout her performance. My heart goes out to her as her eyes were tearing up but she had to stay strong.
Its bad enough she had to perform after her competition..s big opening (Beyonce), let alone the King of POP!

FINALLY the long awaited finally closing act performance of the one and only King Of Pop!
Around 20 children walked on stage, which immediately gave away the song he was going to ..sing.. to all the Michael Jackson fans, But no sign of Jackson.
The track began, ..We Are The World.., two minutes into the track the children were singing along but still no sign of Michael? Is he going to surprise us? Going to fly in from the top of the stage?

As Kyle from My Wife an Kids would say ..errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrm NUH!..
He casually walked on stage with a MIC in his hand, mumbled, ..We are the world... We are... Giving... Made all the kids run up to him, hug him and he sang 5 seconds of vocals with no music again the same lyrics. May I add the microphone was terrible and the whole act was one big devastation.

Even the Celebs were confused!
Then he left the stage, the vice over announced its over and everyone began to boo!
I honestly DON..T BLAME THEM, a lot of the people came from around the world to see Michael Jackson perform, at least make an effort to do something.

My expectations: Beyonce would come on stage starting off ..We Are The World.., followed by Rhianna, then Chris Brown, followed by all the international act taking a verse each singing in their language and then Michael Jackson comes on stage and sings his one line.. PEOPLE THEN WOULDN'T HAVE BOOED AS THEY RECEIVED A PERFORMANCE, A FULL ONE, NOT JUST A BUNCH OF 10-13 YEAR OLD's swaying from side to side to a song that isn't actually being sung by ANYONE!


What frustrated me the most is, after the end of the show al the mad fans chased after Michael not with a BRICK but with gifts and LOVE! Lol
WTF! WHY? He..s let you down, don..t be punks and chase him in mid traffic.
He could of made an effort for you.
Most of the fans were standing from the morning and the night before they were outside his hotel and each restaurant he ate at the least he could give back is half a decent performance! The LEAST HE COULD DO IS THAT!


MJ Fans WAKE UP. Don..t chase after him, he needs to get out his bubble, Don..t get me wrong I love his music and I do think he deserved the award but that put me off him so much its ridiculous.

MJ FANS (again), the nights wasn't called the World Michael Awards so you had no right to boo anyone, instead respect them and cheer for them for coming on stage and performing and dedicating their music to Michael, they love MJ too!
Get over your attitude.


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